my heart gone and gone~

should i stop ? or continue ? but seem like i falling deeply d.

in these 3 days i stop sms but my heart still keep thinking.

i trying to stop but i guess i need some time to stop ba.

i also don't know why i put so much effort inside.

my friends also said i stupid why put so lot.

maybe i think is the one ?

but is not. i really scare of this kind of feeling.

i ask my friends suggestion and they all also reply same thing:

"ah wei, u better stop la, u also haven couple wif her won't so sad 1."

i know but....

never mind. i just need some time to stop. i'm also human. got heart 1. even it's not with me now ~

here im back...

it's been so long that i did not update my blog already..

i don't why got the feeling to write my feeling at here..maybe it only the place that i can release my mood.

i also don't how to describe my current mood now. it make me feel myself not longer me sometimes.

those feeling only on those few day getting strong and strong only..since that moment i started, i know i will facing this problem but it's really hard for me. i don't what to do right now.

It's been more than 2 years i didn't ever dare to touch this line, but now i did it and i don't how to cut it down before it can make me crazy for it.

this kind of thing had already slowly poisoning me more deeply. isn't i not really mean it out ?

i thought i got chance but my feeling that telling me is not. maybe i didn't get the answer yet.

i wanted to know the answer badly so i can early choose to leave or continue for it.

by writing i can't write it so detail and i tried to write this thing not so clearly.

i quite happy when i saw the message, but most of it i had been waited for so long for it just for a reply.

even now i write it out part of my feeling i still not feel better for it. but as least it release part of it.

but soon i think i will get my answer and decide what i have to. in my heart already got answer but i try to give more time for myself to prove is it the answer in my heart same with the answer for that.

i do really hope the answer not same. i really hope there is a chance for me. but still have to face the fact when it comes.

i think enough for now. think will be update soon for that.

lucky my post no people will see. because it been dead blog for quite long already.

another few month let it be dead blog~

lolx...those few month oso lazy update my blog. coz bz ?

haha recently jz start my university only~ quite busy coz 1st week got assignment to do edy

damn yeng ==

even hari raya i oso nid to do my assignment ... damn yeng...

but ytd happy coz got house session wif my frenz at my hse...

due to my parents went to langkawi~ hse left me and my eldest bro only~

we play rock band ( ps3 ) and nami and tommy~ quite happy la~

hehe~

i think i stop here 1st ~

will try to be continue update my blog 1 kor =)

DEAD BLog ?

lolx...macam lama x update my blog..like dead blog now... haha

Tired Tired ><"

haha now simply write onli..
coz quite long din update my blog edy..
but i wonder got ppl view my blog ??
haha not reali care..but hope got =P
recently quite tired...
2nd of may i went to langkawi wif my coursemates
till 5th of may..i very enjoy even it tiring me..
haha..coz most of ppl not reali cont for study~
like ah seng and ah xiang..
they two are goin brunei to find job to work..
i do reali miss them..
after dat night we eat and cc ~
i feel a bit touching..feel wanna cry ~
coz i do reali miss u guys..
and oso others...
like my kor kor...vincent tan~
i miss u le..i feel wanna find u..erm..
maybe next monday i goin penang there..
if i goin sure find my kor kor~
coz duno why..i reali miss him lot~
and of course still got other la =P
during diz holiday i feel like many frenz are not around here..
it make me feel sad..but i oso hope them can get a better life ( job )
after langkawi trip back..i help my frenz work...i stand for whole day man..
work as videoman..haha..doin some survey thing..but nid record down wat we do~
although it tired but i can meet some new frenz =D
after work..ch and i meet lokeken and his gf at wangsa walk for a movie at 11.55pm~
it is IP MAN 2~ not bad a..feel like wanna learn~ haha

today..afternoon i fetch xay xuan at his hse there..kuchai lama there..
den we go ucsi find kelvin for basketball..
damn funny wei~ we played wif black man==
damn tall and long hand == i kena blocked..
but is ok for me...coz i like watching a joke at there..
coz after they score like football..after score will celebrate ==

after dat..at night we went maison..quite fun la.. =D
i knew more frenz which is xx's frenz~
after clubbing we went to kepong for yam cha~
at there we like ki siao kia edy..keep making joke and laugh onli~
i laugh until vomit == wat the..seriously damn funny...
after that i back home at 5am++ and enjoy wif it~

haha..i think diz is a summary for diz few day..
and feel sry for my frenz dat i haven upload pic for langkawi trip..
those few day oso quite bz..will be upload asap~ =D

p.s : i reali miss u guys lot..but times never back forward..dat why i do appreciated the times we been together~ i reali do~ if i did something dat make u sad or angry..i said sry at here~
and i wish u all good luck for anything~

update update again

haha..it's time to let me update diz blog again..oso not reali got many thing to say la..
jz wonder nowadays all like changed..like not longer last time together edy..
mayb diz is a challenge of our frenship to see how strong are we..
btw..no matter wat..frenz = fren forever..however how we all changed..we still frenz..

and now the exam is right in the corner..i still dun have the mood to study..haha..
my lazyness make me dat..but i will try my best to study la.. =D
and i oso hope all my frenz can pass through diz time..coz diz semester is our last sem of diploma..
hope we all can pass and graduate =D

too long din update jor~

sincerely...if i not boring i think i wont update my blog...haha..back to my blog..reali too long din update...and i oso almost 4get wat happen during those days~

result ?? ok la...not fail...but still have to resit one paper..sien...nid re-read back that subject.. however still happy with dat result..coz i din realize dat i could pass all..coz when exam dat time i was worry dat i couldn't do well~

but some of my frenz been failed their some of the subject...so i hope they can do it well in next examination ^^ no nid resit anymore or wat ^^

study ?? aiks..recently dun have that mood to study...my lazy worm is back to my body...haha..even go skul oso quite lazy..but i force myself to go skul nia~ coz i think of dat diz semester is our last semester for diploma~ i might be not continue advan..i oso not sure bout dat yet..so i should more appreciate the time so that we can 2gether more happy..

other ?? i oso duno le..haha...now my mind been stuck jor...haha...

at last i hope all of my frenz always happy and smile alway ^^ dun always think too much bout their thing...coz everything oso got solution..jz nid some time to figure it out onli ^^