my heart gone and gone~

should i stop ? or continue ? but seem like i falling deeply d.

in these 3 days i stop sms but my heart still keep thinking.

i trying to stop but i guess i need some time to stop ba.

i also don't know why i put so much effort inside.

my friends also said i stupid why put so lot.

maybe i think is the one ?

but is not. i really scare of this kind of feeling.

i ask my friends suggestion and they all also reply same thing:

"ah wei, u better stop la, u also haven couple wif her won't so sad 1."

i know but....

never mind. i just need some time to stop. i'm also human. got heart 1. even it's not with me now ~

here im back...

it's been so long that i did not update my blog already..

i don't why got the feeling to write my feeling at here..maybe it only the place that i can release my mood.

i also don't how to describe my current mood now. it make me feel myself not longer me sometimes.

those feeling only on those few day getting strong and strong only..since that moment i started, i know i will facing this problem but it's really hard for me. i don't what to do right now.

It's been more than 2 years i didn't ever dare to touch this line, but now i did it and i don't how to cut it down before it can make me crazy for it.

this kind of thing had already slowly poisoning me more deeply. isn't i not really mean it out ?

i thought i got chance but my feeling that telling me is not. maybe i didn't get the answer yet.

i wanted to know the answer badly so i can early choose to leave or continue for it.

by writing i can't write it so detail and i tried to write this thing not so clearly.

i quite happy when i saw the message, but most of it i had been waited for so long for it just for a reply.

even now i write it out part of my feeling i still not feel better for it. but as least it release part of it.

but soon i think i will get my answer and decide what i have to. in my heart already got answer but i try to give more time for myself to prove is it the answer in my heart same with the answer for that.

i do really hope the answer not same. i really hope there is a chance for me. but still have to face the fact when it comes.

i think enough for now. think will be update soon for that.

lucky my post no people will see. because it been dead blog for quite long already.

another few month let it be dead blog~

lolx...those few month oso lazy update my blog. coz bz ?

haha recently jz start my university only~ quite busy coz 1st week got assignment to do edy

damn yeng ==

even hari raya i oso nid to do my assignment ... damn yeng...

but ytd happy coz got house session wif my frenz at my hse...

due to my parents went to langkawi~ hse left me and my eldest bro only~

we play rock band ( ps3 ) and nami and tommy~ quite happy la~

hehe~

i think i stop here 1st ~

will try to be continue update my blog 1 kor =)

DEAD BLog ?

lolx...macam lama x update my blog..like dead blog now... haha

Tired Tired ><"

haha now simply write onli..
coz quite long din update my blog edy..
but i wonder got ppl view my blog ??
haha not reali care..but hope got =P
recently quite tired...
2nd of may i went to langkawi wif my coursemates
till 5th of may..i very enjoy even it tiring me..
haha..coz most of ppl not reali cont for study~
like ah seng and ah xiang..
they two are goin brunei to find job to work..
i do reali miss them..
after dat night we eat and cc ~
i feel a bit touching..feel wanna cry ~
coz i do reali miss u guys..
and oso others...
like my kor kor...vincent tan~
i miss u le..i feel wanna find u..erm..
maybe next monday i goin penang there..
if i goin sure find my kor kor~
coz duno why..i reali miss him lot~
and of course still got other la =P
during diz holiday i feel like many frenz are not around here..
it make me feel sad..but i oso hope them can get a better life ( job )
after langkawi trip back..i help my frenz work...i stand for whole day man..
work as videoman..haha..doin some survey thing..but nid record down wat we do~
although it tired but i can meet some new frenz =D
after work..ch and i meet lokeken and his gf at wangsa walk for a movie at 11.55pm~
it is IP MAN 2~ not bad a..feel like wanna learn~ haha

today..afternoon i fetch xay xuan at his hse there..kuchai lama there..
den we go ucsi find kelvin for basketball..
damn funny wei~ we played wif black man==
damn tall and long hand == i kena blocked..
but is ok for me...coz i like watching a joke at there..
coz after they score like football..after score will celebrate ==

after dat..at night we went maison..quite fun la.. =D
i knew more frenz which is xx's frenz~
after clubbing we went to kepong for yam cha~
at there we like ki siao kia edy..keep making joke and laugh onli~
i laugh until vomit == wat the..seriously damn funny...
after that i back home at 5am++ and enjoy wif it~

haha..i think diz is a summary for diz few day..
and feel sry for my frenz dat i haven upload pic for langkawi trip..
those few day oso quite bz..will be upload asap~ =D

p.s : i reali miss u guys lot..but times never back forward..dat why i do appreciated the times we been together~ i reali do~ if i did something dat make u sad or angry..i said sry at here~
and i wish u all good luck for anything~

update update again

haha..it's time to let me update diz blog again..oso not reali got many thing to say la..
jz wonder nowadays all like changed..like not longer last time together edy..
mayb diz is a challenge of our frenship to see how strong are we..
btw..no matter wat..frenz = fren forever..however how we all changed..we still frenz..

and now the exam is right in the corner..i still dun have the mood to study..haha..
my lazyness make me dat..but i will try my best to study la.. =D
and i oso hope all my frenz can pass through diz time..coz diz semester is our last sem of diploma..
hope we all can pass and graduate =D

too long din update jor~

sincerely...if i not boring i think i wont update my blog...haha..back to my blog..reali too long din update...and i oso almost 4get wat happen during those days~

result ?? ok la...not fail...but still have to resit one paper..sien...nid re-read back that subject.. however still happy with dat result..coz i din realize dat i could pass all..coz when exam dat time i was worry dat i couldn't do well~

but some of my frenz been failed their some of the subject...so i hope they can do it well in next examination ^^ no nid resit anymore or wat ^^

study ?? aiks..recently dun have that mood to study...my lazy worm is back to my body...haha..even go skul oso quite lazy..but i force myself to go skul nia~ coz i think of dat diz semester is our last semester for diploma~ i might be not continue advan..i oso not sure bout dat yet..so i should more appreciate the time so that we can 2gether more happy..

other ?? i oso duno le..haha...now my mind been stuck jor...haha...

at last i hope all of my frenz always happy and smile alway ^^ dun always think too much bout their thing...coz everything oso got solution..jz nid some time to figure it out onli ^^

One Day ( 6 FEB )

yesterday was so tired...wake up at 12 den ngam ngam darren sms me and told me dat will fetch me at 1...coz 2pm we goin to shopping those..

but we start from 2pm out from kenn's hse.. we reach there den quickly find food to eat 1st..
coz all oso haven take breakfast...damn hungry...haha...so that kenn park his car at ts 1st..
this is our plan

*SHOPPING PLAN*
( PARK at TS , EAT at KIM GARY at S.WANG, den SHOP at S.WANG 1st --> PAVILION --> TS den just BACK ) which plan by darren haha~

*NIGHT PLAN*
( BACK from TS den CC at DESA after that just BAHKUTEH )

so we go KIM GARY to take our 1st meal with Daniel, his GF, Billy, Kenn, Darren and I...
after that juz start our shopping time..after finished meal...
we start shopping at s.wang 1st..we been at there for 4hours++ from 3pm walk till 7pm++

actually not a matter for shopping for 4 hours..but it jz for 3shops for 4hours reali yao yeng jor~
darren is 1st person who use rm500...he keep poisoned that duno wanna buy or not tim xD

after that we walk till a accessory booth which Darren and Kenn bought for ring and ear-ring~
then we saw a simple and nice necklace just alphabet letter..den we decide bought ourself name nia...which is D, K and W which stand for Darren , Kenn and Wei ..hehe...

after for 4 hours walk in S.WANG just few shop..den we decide go to PAVILION for shopping..
at there we walk in to PADINI concept and Kenn been bought a watch that very nice..
it let me think of my hand less something which is WATCH !! haha..feel wanna buy le~
since last year b'day i oso wish my frenz gift me a watch..but never...a bit disappointed bout it..

after that Kenn and I buy singlet and Darren bought a underwear which is RENOMA brand from TANGS~
slowly slowly we saw TOPMAN shop and Kenn told me that he never been inside be4..
so we walk in and see got any discount or nice cloth to buy or not..but for me and Darren weren't..
for Kenn he saw wat he like and been inside for 30min..Darren and i damn tired...haha..coz a bit hungry for that..and that time is goin 9.30...we been planned for ts walk oso de..but not enuf time to shop at there...

so we just can go back ts to get back car and back nia~
for me i haven find my shopping mood back..so just bought for 2 cloth 1 singlet...
but Kenn and Darren been used more than RM500 for their CNY cloth...

we back to Desa around 10++ then we call kaki to play DOTA at V2 but seriously lose 99...
duno why no mood at all..den we decide for last game edy which 4v4 ( frenz match )
becoz goin to have our BAHKUTEH which is our dinner...haha...
so we 55 played finished it..we haven eat and try hold our appetite for it nia~ ^^

*1st TEAM*
( Darren , Kenn , William and Me )

*2nd TEAM*
( Daniel , Kenny , Billy and forget wat name jor =P )

but our team got hope to win 1..but at last oso lose..coz they kap pc 1 ==!

den darren,kenn,william,daniel,kenny and i just went for our BAHKUTEH after finished~

we played till 1++am then all hungry till like hungry ghost jor...
den we go SEGAMBUT there for our BAHKUTEH~ we reach there about 2.30am
then we saw food just take nia~ keep eat and eat... quite nice la the BAHKUTEH ^^ like it~

after finished we chat at there around 4.30am..we din realize that been so EARLY jor~
so we just decide to back home to get our sleep...very tired edy for whole day...

that all about 6Feb~

few day de ~

hehe...those few day oso lazy to update my blog..coz everytime wanna post oso feel duno wat to write..

those few day reali thx for kor kor vincent..
coz he drive from kepong to fetch me to selayang c 针灸..
even today he oso come and fetch me although after dat din have any event...
although dat..we from car chat till there ,even finish 针灸 we oso keep chat about many thing..

jz a bit shock while he told me dat xD but anyway..oso not a matter for me..everyone oso got their road to walk..it depend on how they walk nia ~ wakaka...

a bit kek 1 is while i talking bout my sad thing..ngam ngam kor kor's disc playing sad music..let me feel wanna cry a bit wakaka..kek is becoz the disc suppose is clubbing song..but suddenly out a touching music... for me, i'm the one who easily get touch while listen music or watch movie..dat why my mood are usually unstable de ~

4 FEB

this day we went to kuala selangor ~ we went there with vivian's mum , vivian , vincent kor kor , willson ah ba and jacky..our 1st destination is go c monkey xD

while we reach there we saw many monkey around there..and while vivian and ah ba take peanut ( which is 1 of the favourite food for monkey ) den started monkey come around for food~

at there we saw ah ba keep talking wif monkey...haha...no doubt diz is one of skill of my ah ba ~
hehe..joking nia..
coz those monkey very naughty...keep grab food from those child monkey...so poor la...

but anyway we keep give those child monkey to eat..after dat we saw a new born monkey which still orange with brown colour..haven black colour yet...

after we fed finished den aunty bring us to eat..coz all of us early in the morning oso haven take meal de..all edy hungry jor...like jz now monkey all hungry nid to search for food jor XD

aunty bring us to a restaurant and there food seriously not bad at all..hope next time can go again..haha..after dat aunty bring us to their apartment..at there we suddenly saw mahjong table and feel wanna to play~ so we at there open table jor ~ but no judi la..jz play for fun nia~

after dat aunty bring us go eat again..but diz time jz try the famous food nia~ not reali much at all..but my kor kor too full edy..so his 1 oso giv me to help him to finish it..

pic while eating ~








after dat we went back to vivian's hse.. and we decide had our hair cut since aunty and vivian oso said not bad for dat saloon~ which called "CHAR REN" located at pandan indah~

taking those pic while at saloon waiting for hair cut~










after hair cut pic ~ ( vincent kor and me )





after dat aunty ask us to go to visit their grandma and having our dinner there...which at sentul..
we seem like non-stop for eating nia..dat all bout 4/feb/2010~ xD

all bout 2day

today..about 3 like diz vincent come and fetch me..actually wanna go selayang c doc de..but duno got open or not..so decide go for movie or shopping with ah ba them..so we call ah ba, fannie and jacky to midvalley for watch Haunted University...

this movie quite scary but duno why for me i sure laugh 1..i keep laughing when scary part...mayb i sot jor gua xD ..i see vincent , jacky and fannie scare till duno how to descibe..only ah ba and i din scare while watching this movie..hehe..

after watch finished den we decide go find vivian for yam cha..for us is dinner ~
so we go to ampang there find vivian and her bro and decide go to station one yam cha..we at there till 1sumthing den back home le..coz all edy very tired..and tmr still have to go s.wang shopping xD

but now..i totally no mood at all..my heart duno why like cant breath smoothly..like something stabbing in my heart let me feel like dat..dowan to mention it too clearly..haha..
jz while watching 下一站，幸福 and listen the theme song suddenlly my tear drop down and my heart been stabbed..so pain..

feel wanna cry out..but i think is time to let me think properly isit i have to be like dat ??
i think i have to move it forward..dun think other thing so much edy..focus on my studies 1st..those thing if it comes it will comes to u~ if not it never be~

hope i can be always like dat.. btw is goin to Happy CNY edy..wish everyone happy CNY o ^^

Tiring Day~

actually this post i about 28/1/2010 1..jz yesterday too tired..no energy to think or write ...so straight sleep edy XD

so happy yesterday so is our DCM last paper ^^ finally oso fiinish~ no nid study edy..can enjoy our holiday...but the paper a bit hard ba..hope can get good result..

after finish exam i ask ah ba them wanna go where..they say wanna go eat at tbr ba..coz they duno vincent them at where coz they early go out from exam hall XD after dat my kor kor ( vincent ) sms me me and ask me where am i..and whether ask me wanna go wangsa walk mall go eat or not..den i ask ah ba them go along XD

went to wangsa walk mall with ah ba ( willson ), bro ( xay xuan ), sister ( vivian ), ( GAN KOR KOR - vincent ) , tingwei,jacky,yin yeh and 1 more special ppl..which is gavin chong xD he oso follow us ~

went there eat 小炒 at little duno wat jor xD all eat like got time stop along~ maybe the food got a bit problem ba~ xD

take picture be4 go bowling



after dat we went for bowling but beside dat..that zombie got exam at 2pm so i volunteer to fetch him back to college ~ hehe...after dat jz back wangsa walk mall for bowling~ but while playing many ppl oso become ghost coz din sleep well or din sleep~ so we 55 play finish den back home sleep XD

we finish play our bowling at 3..den vincent fetch me back home mean time got ppl call me...wat a shock is yan yan..she call me for having out..actually be4 dat ah boy call me go out to cheras for basketball..i almost wanna go jor de..jz see him wat time go nia..but when yan yan call me and she say she very boring den i decide wif her ba..den she decide go sing k..and with along yen yee~ hehe...so sry to ah boy.. sometime life is like dat de ??

no choice ma..din went out wif yan yan so long edy..sure got that mood to go out wif her de xD after that she ask me to book the room...and i book 4.30 at redbox lowyat and yan yan fetch us at 3.40..

unfortunate we was late for it..the counter ask us to wait till 5.30 jz got available room for us so we decide go somewhere else walk walk around 1st..den we went to sg.w ~ walk ha walk ha..i jz remember got frenz open shop at there..so decide to find him and take a look of his shop xD which name ( I AM FAMOUS ) at 1st floor (F003) quite not bad the cloth there..hehe..

goin 5.30 le..we rushing there for our room hehe...we sing k from 5.30 till 9pm..during sing k i reali like sot jor..keep laugh like ki siao jor xD i laugh till no energy and more tired..when sing some sad song reali sad lor..and sometime i sing i do realy dat xD

taking pic xD wif yan~


yan , me and yen yee~


me and yen yee~

steal her pic xD

after that we went back home wif tired..hehe...actually night got go clubbing de..jz very tired edy..so din go out edy...dat all 2day...quite happy~

Back to Blog

finally i re-create my blog back..dunno why i will auto to cr8 back..suddenly feel want to do that nia~ XD

dunno how to say my feeling now..listening music..but let me think back many thing..

not even sad thing or happy thing...even now facing de also will appear in my mind..just can say.. blurring XD

dunno why now i listening Jay Chou song which are 安静 , 龙卷风 , 开不了口 and 可爱女人. those song also let my mood down and up..

安静 - this song make me think of many memorize..very special..let me think of many happy or sad thing..this song also let me cool down although it let me tear down~

开不了口 & 可爱女人 - this song let me think of her..but why i suddenly think of her 1..i shouldn't think of her..let me feel ( 7 up 8 down ).should i say it out ?? but i noe she noe edy just becoz of something..i cant do it that way and other reason is i really been hurt be4 deeply..it make me hard to trust it anymore...

but what to say now is..many thing also over, people just can memory back their memorize but just can't back in that day. we should appreciate the opportunity while in ur hand, we shouldn't let it go so easily without try to fight for it. After that, we must look forward and don't look back le coz life wont back forward bt it will continue. so we should fight for our future even we lost our chance. in our life, we been given many chances it just depend on ourself whether we can found it or not.

just like diz song 龙卷风 - love can come to beside very fast but it also can go away with very fast too..dun think so much while it beside u..u have to grab ur chance while it come..

( 愛 只有簡單筆畫　卻比想像複雜 很安定愛變化 )

OMG i 4get i still got last paper to exam but i still here for my blog. no choice..i don't have any mood to study now..all my mood surrounding by those things~ aiks...

hope i get back my mood to study later~ and wish all my friend good luck on their exam even is last paper XD